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My brain is a scrambled mess right now. I can't think or even blog straight. I feel like there are a few hundred bees in my head....and it's not the caffeine. There are so many what if's about my employment future, I feel like I'm about to snap. I really just need to calm down and let things unfold for the next few months. But it's just so hard knowing that what you've been wanting for years is just at your fingertips, and yet still so far away. Aaaahhhhh!